Emotionally Independent or Emotionally Detached?

I am a living being, an amalgamation of various chemicals, atoms and molecules.
I can feel heat as much I can feel cold.
My heart fills with love as much with sorrow.
My eyes shed tears for reasons not known yet. In sorrow I cry, in happiness I cry.
When angry, I shout or just shut up; in happiness I smile or laugh out loud.
I am just a structure of 206 bones wrapped in flesh covered with miles and miles of veins and filled with litres of blood.
When I fall I am hurt I feel pain and I bleed. When I fall I am hurt I feel pain and I don’t bleed. While I am alone, I need company to speak and share.
I also feel sad when the love of my life goes away; never to come back.
I also feel frustrated when things do not happen as I want.
I also feel angry when a person not known to me abuses me.

WHY? What am I?

Is this what is known to be a human being?
How do I tell the difference?
The heart in me pumps blood to the veins so that they can function. The eyes see and act as the body’s camera to transmit live images to the brain. It is the brain that analyses the image and further instructs what has to be done. The body is all about mechanised functions programmed to operate on its own until stopped by an outside agent/force. It is a robot of sorts. But still it is called a human body and not a machine. Surprising! Isn’t it? The only thing that can differentiate between me and a robot is feelings. I am not a cyborg! Devoid of pain and fear.

I feel the pain & am hurt. And walk with a heavy heart. Likewise, when I see those eyes, a smile appears on my lips and my heart wants to sing. I need a hug to re-assure myself that I am not alone. Why is the heart involved? When, its primary function is only to pump blood. Like a piston in a vehicle.

What is the difference between me and a robot? It is feelings.

A robot is programmed to function as decided by its owner. I am conditioned by my people. A robot cannot think whereas I do the thinking. But like a robot I too at times; if not always forget to follow my thoughts and act according to those of others. Does it not mean that I too have become a robot? At least the robot doesn’t have a conflict of thoughts. It just performs as programmed whereas I act when I do not follow my thoughts; but those of others. Then the feelings are missing and I too become a robot.
I stop on my own either due to my mental conditioning or the society for the fear of spoiling my image. That helps neither towards the work done nor towards the self. It’s just wasting time to portray a sober good image that which is demanded by the society and not by me. I just want to be me! Free!!!

So what am I? Who am I? Am I a mechanised robot or a living robot?

Now that I know what I am what if I remove the “I” from me? What do I see? Who is the one standing on the other side of the mirror? Is that me or just an amalgamation of chemicals, atoms and molecules.
Why not remove the “I” in me that I which is my ego and I too shall become one with the surroundings. I too will gel with the fragrance emanating from the lovely rose, I too will be able to fly with the birds and not remain caged in the prison of my inherited thoughts.